Before I get into the meat of my adventures i need to process the significance of this adventure. My time here has been so interesting with all signs pointing to pass go; by saying that i mean that it has been magical, mystical, significant. Everywhere I turn, things are pushing me towards success and realizing my dreams with my family. This might sound odd to anyone who isn't living this reality but maybe with my presentation of evidence you too will agree. Most people that know me, know that I have a special connection with the #34, so when I found out that my new home in Japan would be at 34 degrees latitude, I started to wonder if there were greater forces at work here and what was in store. Since arriving in Japan I have just been inundated with the #34, the cell phone # for the phone my sponsor handed me when he left me at the base lodging that first night; the phone number of the person I bought my truck from on the 34th day of being here, funny story is that I bought the truck on a whim after waking up for no reason at 0500 and seeing the exact truck i wanted posted to the FB classified ads only moments before, I had no idea when I woke up that day that I would buy a truck and be driving by noon.
We arrived in Japan on August 20 after a week long stay at the beach in Hawaii. We definitely needed that week of R&R as it was an escape that was sandwiched between two of the most stressful weeks of my life! Moreso that week served as a time for me to completely let go of the stress, hurt and bitterness that i had internalized from the treatment i had been subjected to from my bosses and family leading up to my departure. That week in Hawaii was a very special time filled with the therapy of swimming, cooking and eating with my dearest. The night we arrived in Iwakuni was a full moon, but not just any regular full moon it was a blue moon, the 3rd of 4 full moons in a single season, it was the full moon in Aquarius (my zodiac sign, this article cracked me up as it talks about the significance of this special moon: http://www.elsaelsa.com/astrology/2013/08/14/full-moon-in-aquarius-august-20-2013/). I am definitely a quirky, psychic Queen! The next such moon isn’t until June 2016, which will coincidentally mark the beginning of my last summer in Japan.
The term “once in a blue moon” means something rare. And this blue moon was not just any normal blue moon it was also a red moon and a Full Sturgeon moon. This moon was both a red moon and a blue moon, which strikes me to think of the symbolism of the two colors red and blue. I think of hot and cold especially in relationship to emotions, which is exactly what i was feeling on this night. I was feeling the passion to move forward and at the same time gripped by the icy hands of fear, knowing that change and unknown lies ahead. And 3moons later, i am feeling much more at ease, less afraid of my surroundings. When I first got here, I was terrified of the strange bugs that might be lurking in the grass, trees, beds, under the table, in my cubicle at work there were these black jumping attack spiders that would send me into a panic. pretty much everywhere I looked, everything looked different than what I had left in Alaska.
My weekly horoscope was just as foreboding and intuitive of the changes I was going through that week. Aquarius: "Every chapter of life is another page in the book you’re writing. A chapter begins on the next page and follows the previous, just one page away. So life does change, but like the chapters of a book, we do not erase our past. Those previous pages are important to the overall story. The next chapter is not a complete change, it’s just the next step. You can however, decide how this next chapter is going to change the story and thus the rest of the book. You are the author after all. Your intuition kicks up a notch at the end of the week, helping you plan your next steps. It’s time to be inventive. Your true self wants to shine."
and as Cherokee Billie the blogger, Spiritual Advisor and Inspiration, noted on her website our "HEIGHTENED EMOTIONS were due to multiple cosmic culprits: 1. The Moon was at its closest approach to Earth all Month. She seemed to be psychically aware of what our family was going through with this observation, "Have you noticed you are picking on little things for no good reason, having very random thoughts or other people seem to be having a go at you?" She further warned that "we are being influenced by the cosmic weather. The SUN was firing off M Class flares.....Whenever the surface of the SUN is flaring our own inner environment’s rise in awareness as we slough of the old ways in favor of the new and positive for our life." As I was flying across the pacific ocean i had this feeling of relief and a huge weight being lifted. I think it had to do with the realization that I had left the tribulations behind from the last 2 years at my job. They could no longer touch me and i would not be subjected to the infighting and abusse that had become so prevalent during the last year. I also have had this realization that there is no more need to focus on the past, except to let it go. I am ready to create my future.
Sometimes growth can feel weird and strange when you are no longer connecting to your past. But truly, the old way of living no longer works for me. I am experiencing new aspects of myself and life. I am giving birth to the new me, and giving birth is painful. This is real work. This is real growth. There is so much to celebrate. The more you love and value yourself. The more you have to give to others. I feel as though I am emerging from the ‘chrysalis’ and learning a whole new way to live. What am I trying to say here? Well mostly that I want to use this experience in Japan to become a better version of myself and that there are a lot of cosmic forces out there to suggest that this is the right time to undertake this transformation.
One thing that has given me great comfort these past 21 lunar cycles is to know that everyone that i miss so much is looking at the exact same moon that i am each night. So while I am missing my friends and family, i hope they know that this journey is one that I wish for them to experience with me and I hope that they come to visit. And everynight after I read the kids their bedtime story "Goodnight Moon" I will tuck them in and then go to my balcony and look at the moon and whisper "Godnight moon" and think of everyone who is not here with me.
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| My $500 truck. |
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| My coworkers and new leadership |
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| the year of dreams! |
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